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Well, I kept trying to squat like most people do trying so hard not to lean forward and kept falling over on my ass lol. That and also I couldn’t feel the work in my glutes, only quads. Are you familiar with the way little children squat? I still can’t do it but getting better every day by practicing.

Turns out I have super tight hips and that prevented me of hinging correctly, plus the aformentioned femur/torso ratio.

I hired a personal trainer in january of this year to help me out with stuff and she helped me correct my form. Now I use a pair of those foam wedge things under my heels to prop me up in a better position and I can squat way better. It was a game changer.

Learning the proper way to squat for my long femurs/short torso body. It makes such a difference in how and where I feel the muscle work. Knees over toes be damned!

I always get my SO three things every year: one thing he really wants (This year is a pair of submarine shears), something he needs (New hiking boots) and something that he wouldn’t get for himself (A week in cabin/shack at secluded beach in the caribbean to fish, scuba dive and relax).

I caught myself in an old defense mechanism loop and was able to stop, breath, sit with the discomfort and own that motherfucking trauma response for what it is, then dismiss it and carry on with my day. So, like a very proud ten.

Yeah now they do and I feel kinda vindicated TBH. Back when I was a kid this dish was compared to dog food by some of my classmates and teachers, I kid you not. Maybe I still carry some of that trauma and I wouldn’t serve it to guests but I will gladly cook it for me and my kid, who also loves it.

Uuyyyyy me acordé de los taquitos de manteca con sal el fila de las tortillas. Que delicia!

Exactly this.

Thank you for taking your time to explain what these were to my ignorant ass lol

Cut up tortillas, fry them with some salt, when crispy crack two or three eggs in there and scramble. I grew up eating it and while it is delicious I don’t think I would serve it to guests.

I’m sorry, pickled what now? Is it some obscure vegetable I’ve never heard about? Or are they like actual bird eyes like from a chicken?

Finding a great trauma informed therapist. After many attempts and being scalped, I finally found her and she has been the most compassionate, understanding and to the point therapist I could ever ask for.

Finding a great doctor who actually listens and has helped me tons with my condition.

I just I didn’t have to pay so much money to access these professionals, not that they don’t deserve it, they do!

Once told me

Plus that post class bliss is absolutely wonderful! I love yoga in its many forms.

Succulents are the answer! They thrive on neglect and look so cool and alien. I love them.

Relatos de la noche Mr Ballen’s old stuff

Oh sad face. It is one of my favorite books and also think the movie is a piece of art.

Never read it, just some parts here and there because a girlfriend was reading it and it was hilarious LOL The descriptions are supposed to be sexy or alluring or god knows what but they are so cringey! It took me a bit to understand that my friend was reading it seriously.

Plus it makes it feel like a game, kinda. I hate doing the dishes, but can I finish before the pot boils over? I load folding laundry but can I do it before my show is over? Etc

There is a very skittish mare that I leave alone because of said skittishness. Today while browsing my phone I was leaning on the stall wall right by her not paying attention when suddenly she came up and put her head next to mine in a “what are we looking at” kind of gesture. She stayed there for a bit while I was trying my best to stay still and not let my excitement show too much. It made me feel special.

“The teachings of Don Juan” by Carlos Castaneda. Read it in highschool and it put me off psychedelics for more than two decades.