Just go eat a bunch of psilocybin and report back OP

I don’t really like it (not that I dislike it). It just makes sense to be here for the work and the public transportation in case I don’t have a car for any length of time

The first step is recognizing your employer is never your “friend”. You have something they need, they provide you something you also need in return. Look at yourself as a badass mercenary or a wise old merchant or however helps you recognize your agency and inherent worth as a human being.