After what seems like a year of near constant stress, disappointment, and loneliness, I decided to stop sitting at my computer all day and start making better choices for myself. This was a really hard thing to do for me since I work from home about two feet from my entertainment area. I would end up sitting at my desk all day and neglecting things that I wanted to do and I wasn’t sure why.
This month I have:
Set up the Ender 3 V2 that was sitting in my closet for two years and printed out a bunch of cool shit with my kid.
Exercised every other day to try to help myself with some vicious joint pain that has developed recently.
Kept the dishes from piling up on my desk.
Made doctor and dentist appointments.
Don’t get me wrong, things are still stressful and disappointing, but I feel a lot better than I have in a long time. What have you done to care for yourself lately? Digging yourself out of depression is hard and I want to hear your successes, no matter how small they are.
When smartphones were new, I started dating a girl who would roll over in bed first thing in the morning, pick up her phone, and start scrolling. I thought it was incredibly weird. Why not life? Why computer? Now, I do the same thing, and it’s normal. Or rather it was until a couple of weeks ago.
The scary thing is that I’ll start to get antsy as the one-hour mark comes near. I’ll keep checking the clock for when I can pick it up and get my stimulation. So far it is working most days, though, and it feels like it improves the rest of the day for me.
I always feel like I’m going to miss something important, but honestly, there is nothing important happening that I can’t just hear from someone else. I really want to get to the point where I wake up, throw on some clothes, and go for a walk and leave my phone at home. I think if I can do this through the fall and winter, I can do it forever.
You can run down some of the clock by making yourself a good breakfast every morning! My wife got into a real tamagoyaki kick and I’ve been making her one pretty much every day and it makes me pretty happy to be cooking again.