Not to brag but I’m a pretty confident person in my social circle. I’m funny, make people laugh etc. etc.
Basically, I am adored by everybody.
But there is something that I noticed about myself lately. Regularly people come up to me to chat and sometimes they compliment me. Now, complimenting isn’t a bad thing, obviously. But I just don’t feel anything when I receive them.
However I enjoy it when people talk good things about me when I’m not present. I, again, don’t feel anything when people talk shit about me when I’m not present. BUT I really enjoy it when people straight up come at me and say something bad at me. My mood increases and I spend the rest of my day happier.
Is this some kind of a defense/coping mechanism that I have unintentionally developed? I don’t see anything bad about this.
It’s also worthy to say that I spent the majority of my life isolated up until a few years ago. No compliments at all but nobody to say bad things either. Is this why I fail to appreciate compliments?
Awwh damn, sorry you lost your group of homies to a goober :( I’m glad you had other friends at the time though~ Losing everyone because of one goob sucks.
It’s not always easy to accept these behaviours though. Even after my aunt’s radical statement, I needed a lot of introspection in order to find, well, reality lol.
Jesus Christ take me backI concur with your conclusion, but I also love to balance it with a paraphrased quote who’s origin I don’t recall…
It has two sides: Humans are corruptable, but we are also redeemable. It helps me put the humanity back on people my brain would otherwise villanize. I’m ever the optimistic ideallist though. :p
Ooof idealist. On the shitlist with you! /s